I did my first official work-out with a trainer today. Which means that I'm not really typing this post. I'm using my Jedi mind powers to manipulate the keyboard because my arms are in full-on rebellion right now.
My trainer is awesome and he decided (as made obvious by the title) that I needed a little work on my arms/upper body area. And well...I knew I was out of shape but OH MY WORD THE BURNING!!!
When it was all over, I was a sweating, quivering mass of Jell-O. I didn't cry and I didn't toss my cookies...but I may have said the Lord's name out loud once or twice.
In reverent prayer, of course. As in, "Oh Jesus. JE-sus. JAY-SUS!!! FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT'S HOLY TAKE MY ARMS! TAKE 'EM LORD! They've been good to me! They don't deserve all this abuse! Do whatever is in Thy Holy Will to do with them just MAKE IT STOP!"
(Ok so maybe that was a little bit extreme and I didn't quite go there...but I wanted to.)
However sore my body may be...the thing is, I did it. And everytime my body said "Girl...you gon' hafta put a stop to this! We cain't do this!" I just remembered all the OTHER times my body said I couldn't...but I did.
Due an issue with my knee, I've decided to walk the 5k instead of run and lower the impact so as not to do major damage. So instead of walk/shuffle/walk I'm just walking.
But I'm walking longer and faster to compensate. I'm up to 30 minutes at a 3.7 mph clip. After that I've been hopping on to the elliptical for a 20 minute fat-burner session. Hopefully next week I'll be able to up my walking speed to almost 4 mph and do more time on the elliptical.
Plus the personal trainer work-outs.
It sounds like a lot, and it is...but I'm so determined to see this through. I've been off the sodas for about 6 weeks now, and I've been working out for three weeks. I lost another pound this week but more than that...I'm defeating the voices in my head that keep saying I can't.
Because y'all...Yes. I. Can. And the more I do it, the more my confidence grows. Each workout does more to chip away at the feelings of shame and defeat for having let myself get to this point.
I'm doing it.
I'll bet you can do it too.
Rotating on Mimi's playlist this week:
Revolution on the Dance Floor - I don't know who recorded this. My kids downloaded it.
California Gurls - Katy Perry
Bring It On - Lenny Kravitz
American Idiot- Green Day
So What - P!nk
Live and Let Die - GnR
Back in Black - AC/DC
Mama's Broken Heart - Miranda Lambert
What Was I Thinkin' - Dierks Bentley
Last Dance With Mary Jane - Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers