Yeah, so I guess it's time I face the music and admit I'm in a bit of a slump here. I think it all started the other day when I asked my daughter if I could post about Butterbean beginning to crawl and she said, "Oh yay! Mimi will finally have something interesting to talk about!"
Actually, it's not her fault. It's mine. I've been over-thinking things and not really writing for myself.
I started this blog because I love that little Butterbean. And I want to catalog as many little moments as I can during this first year of her life. And oh...it's flying by so so so quickly.
This little area of digital space is my way of trying to grab time and hold it hostage so I can look at it anytime I want to and remember.
I want to remember the time she started that weird growling noise. At first it made us laugh but then we were wondering if we should perhaps call in an exorcist. Because it got a bit extreme.
Then there was the screaming phase. Where all waking moments were filled with high pitched screams that would have scared Michael Myers himself. Again, we wondered...is it her hearing? Is this normal?
It's amazing what you forget from when YOUR children were babies.
Which, again, is the purpose of this blog.
I want to remember the look on her face when she rolled over for the first time right in the middle of our women's Bible study. I want to bottle up the scent of her head right after her bath when she's laying against me all sweet and drowsy and sucking her thumb...ready for nighty night.
I know there are lots of wonderful moments ahead...but the joy I've had already...it can't be measured or contained or even described.
It can only be remembered.
My sweet, sweet girl...you're just seven tiny months old right now. You're working on your crawling, you've got two sweet little bottom teeth, and another tooth up top is trying to push it's way through. Your smile and precious laugh make every bad, stressful moment fly right out of my head. You love your Uncle Chris and follow him with your eyes and your smile as soon as he walks into the room. And he loves you right back...always anxious about your well-being and making sure you're ok. And oh, how he loves to make you laugh.
Your Bops/Grumps/Mr. W did his level best remain aloof at first (because he's a man and men don't do mushy very well) but he couldn't help himself. He fell head over heels for you and now spends a lot of his time throwing you up in the air and making my heart stop. He does this because you love it and I don't. So you know...win win.
Someday Butterbean, when you're older, if the internet is still chugging along...I hope you stumble across this space and remember and know how deeply and richly you were loved. And how incredibly thankful I am to God that He gave you to us.
Love, your Mimi