Butterbean has decided to start crawling. I knew time was limited a couple of weeks ago when she decided to start sitting up by herself. Is it bad that I want to keep her in this sweet and soft baby skin of hers forever?
Yes I'm totally selfish. You can say it. It's ok.
Butterbean dropped by for a visit last night and as usual, I laid out a quilt on the living room floor and put her on her tummy. Then I plopped down beside her and began my ritual of
Because that's what perfectly sane adults do when a baby is around.
Anyway, now that she's figured out she can move her body toward an object of her desire, she's wearing herself out exploring the edges of the quilt. Sometimes that's a lot for a little girl with roly poly baby fat arms and legs. She gets a little tired from living on the edge. Of the quilt that is.
And then sometimes she's just downright lazy.
Last night after gumming our way through the story of Abraham's servant playing matchmaker, we read a few Susan Boynton books. (Don't ask me the titles. I don't pay attention...I just read)
Butterbean likes those books. They are made of stiff board and she hasn't figured out how to get the edges into her mouth so...I guess that's good. But the funny thing about it was watching her chase those books around the quilt.
She would grab one and it would fall out of her grasp. She would grunt, get her behind up in the air, lay her head down on the quilt and then stretch as far as she could and her legs would propel her forward.
She looked like a dying inchworm, but she was getting it done. And then, at one point, she just couldn't stand it anymore and she looked at me and cried a bit in frustration.
At that moment I had a choice to swoop down and be the hero and give her what she wanted, or I could let her figure it out herself and allow her to grow a little in the process.
It was a toughie. I always want Butterbean to be happy. But sometimes, happiness isn't as necessary as we think it is. Sometimes it's important to go through a little frustration and a little pain in order to grow and become stronger.
It wasn't easy to watch her struggle, but I knew she could do it. I had faith in her.
You know where this is going don't you?
Think on it. Who watches us while we struggle and try to learn to walk in this grace that has been lavished on us? Who has faith...in us?
Yep. You guessed it. He does.
So what if we all look like dying inchworms? So what? So what if we need a breather every now and then and just have to look at Jesus and cry?
Here's what's gonna happen. Butterbean doesn't know this yet, but I do. Eventually...she's going to get it. She's going to learn to crawl. And then she's going to learn to walk, and finally...to run.
And baby...so will you.
Be encouraged sweet one. Your Heavenly Father has His eye on you at all times and He has faith in you.
You can do it.